Q: What was the beginning of the work?

A: most of this work started this year with found objects and memories of the closets in my childhood home in upstate new york.

Q: Where did it happen?

A: mostly in my studio, on a remote street across from a train yard in commerce.

Q: How did you feel about in the beginning? 

A: playful and energized

Q: How do you feel about it now? 

A: lighter but a bit shy

Q: What changes occurred in your life while making it? 

A: a great unfolding an alchemical release an awkward purge

Q: What things were you enjoying while you made this it? 

A: working outside. conversations with studio mates, lots of baths.

Q: What were your most consumed foods during this time? 

A: congee, kitchari, canned sardines, zankou chicken

Q: How have you been changed since making it? 

A: I'm a little more free and a little more fragile

Q: When you were making this, did you exclusively focus on it or were you working on other things simultaneously?

A: In this case, i made many things at once rather loosely and brought most of it to install. i didn't decide on what or wouldn't be shown until that day. decisions were made.

Q: When did you name it? 

A: I've had the title for a few years. while attending a jungian workshop in 2018, i was given the assignment of making a mandala drawing, reflecting my "spiritual journey'. i wanted to escape the group dynamic and hid in the coat room to make my mandala. i thought it was a funny title at the time and it felt appropriate for this context.

Q: Did you make notes or sketches for it?

A: Many notes and a few tiny models made of clay, tape and bamboo skewers.

Q: Do you concern yourself with your reasons for making it?

A: yes! i can't help myself!

Q: What have been the consequences of what you made? 

A: see question 8

Q: Are you trying to evoke specific feelings for other people with it?

A: feelings yes. Specific, no.

Q: What were your most important tools in the process of making this?

A: Pleasure and ambivalence

Q: How difficult was it to make?

A: I'm coming off taking a long break from making work in a studio. I had to sift through a lot of internal banter, blocks and rusty ideas to get into a flow of making that felt pleasurable and fun.

Q: What organ of the body do you associate with it?

A: the lungs

Q: What quality of your personality do you associate with it?

A: gravity and fatigue

Q: How long do you intend for this to live in the world?

A: Undecided